Well, after a weekend that was very disappointing, I was told that I do not show my sexy. My sexy, you may say? Well, the way he explains it is that I don't give off the arua of being sexy. That I come off as more of one of the homeboys. I say that I don't like being sexy it is too much work.
Work? Yes, I said it work. Why is it that men feel that women have to give off sexy all the time. I mean dude is fine as all get out. So I guess that he is use to those types of random chics that ooze sexy. Like any minute we are going to end up in bed. What ever. I save my sexy for a man that makes me put forth the effort. See I might not be a dime. A 10. Hell I am probably more like a 6 or a 7 on a good day. But I am sexy in my owe right. Hell I can be as sexy as those Dimes want to be. But for what? Just to be even more disappointed? Hell no.
Plus, I have taught myself that I am to valuable to be just showing my sexy like that. Men, think that you are easy like that. Men, like a challenge. Me, I like to give them one. But at the same time, I want to be homegirl. Homegirl is the some one that you talk to about most anything. As homegirl I find out a lot about you and how you act. But if you want me to be more then homegirl then you have to let me know. Cause if not ,then I just feel that it is not worth my sexy just to be disappointed.
I am so used to being disappointed. Like most times. So I guess that I have just put my sexy on lock at this point. I rather have a friend then to work at being sexy and then just being disappointed.
